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The Tarot Experiment: September

Tarot has always been a hobby of mine. Although I’m not thoroughly invested in its fortune telling abilities, I find it a really fun way to get my thoughts in order. So on that note, I thought a fun way to document my year on placement would be to throw out an annual tarot spread and see how each card compares to the actual events each month brings.

September’s card turned out to be Three of Swords. This card represents heartache and even more so when the card is reversed. The quote in my tarot guide reads: “Confusion and worry, a great upheaval that causes stress. The healing process has begun, even though you have a long way to go.”

This couldn’t have been more accurate if it tried. Unfortunately, my placement is located a considerable distance away from my previous city, which has cost me a 2 and a half year long relationship. As inappropriate as it may seem to document this detail, I want this blog to be a raw and honest recount of my year – and that includes acknowledging events and memories which might not all be rainbows and unicorn poop.

Regardless of whether tarot readings have any truth to them or not, I strongly believe that the healing process really has begun. Although there may be a long way to go and I’m inevitably feeling a bit sore, I can see through the tunnel to the end of this year and it still has a warm and encouraging fire burning slowly on the other side.

This is a time to get to grips with what I love doing again. Lots of handcrafting is definitely a priority for next month and I’m going to be learning from two lovely entrepreneurial ladies how to build a business from scratch. It’s time to put my best foot forward and step confidently into a new academic year.

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Are We Supposed to Hate What We Write?

More often than not, I would look back on pieces that I have written and comment on how much I disliked the work that I had published.

I ┬áthink we’ve all had a moment where we’ve looked at something we’ve done in the past and flinched. And the embarrassment often compels us to delete it or block it out or use whatever means are necessary to make it seem like it never existed.

But recently, I’ve come to see these experiences as similar to a splatter of colours across a blank canvas. If we stayed with the same opinions all of our lives, the canvas would be very bleak – linear, monochrome clone drawings that don’t tell us anything new or show any kind of journey. Each new splatter is personal and unique and makes the canvas a whole lot more meaningful than just a copy of a copy, terrified to make mistakes and explore.

So unless you were born as a fully evolved human being, then you will move on from the stages that you were at. I think its okay to acknowledge that you aren’t the person you were then. But don’t hate that person for how they made sense of the world, because who you are today is built on it. Nothing is permanent, so I think it is especially important to speak up and record our opinions whilst they last, even if we are afraid that we are wrong. Because the learning process is just as important, if not more so, than the conclusion we come to at the end.

A Year of Fashion Design

LineupI began university last year to complete a degree in Fashion Design. I had very little knowledge of anything I should have known, but I figured what the hell, if I was wanting to learn I was in the best place for it. I have recently decided to start a different fashion course – nevertheless, learn is certainly what I did throughout this year! The aim of today’s blog is to outline the life lessons I have taken from my year of Fashion Design – and I hope it might reassure some readers out there that are worrying about their futures.

I only had very basic sewing skills when the year began. During my first semester, I felt like a goldfish that had strayed from its safe and familiar fish bowl, into a huge savage ocean – I felt like I had no chance of making it in the industry and I was wasting time and money. Leaving any comfort zone in search of greater plains can be a gut wrenching thought, it’s a perfect example of a leap of faith. But trying to better yourself is never a bad thing and fear stops us from doing it all too often. By the end of the course I had made a waistcoat with silk lining and a customised shirt, something I could never have done when I began. Trusting yourself enough to take the leap can lead you down lots of new and interesting paths!

A lesson I feel I really need to express is it never hurts to be prepared. CAD software was a big part of the year and I’m a bit of a technophobe so I literally knew zilch about it when I began. Grabbing the problem by the horns was my most successful strategy – don’t be afraid, have fun with it and remember that everything you learn can be used again, so its infinitely rewarding!

I think the most important lesson I have taken away from this year is to take things as they come. I know a lot more about myself than when I started and although my career plan has changed, I feel I had to take the Fashion Design route to reach where I am now. I have learnt lots of important emotional and practical skills and I feel that completing this year has better equipped me for the future. My final tip for anyone in a similar position is not to worry! Life may not go according to the way you first planned, but there are no instructions and finding your own way through it all is a crucial and fulfilling part of the journey.